Finally a picture! Here I am at 21 weeks!!! I'm finally starting to look so cute and preggo if I do say so myself :) Believe me when I say I am very happy though I am not smiling in this picture I AM happy.
People (Julia) have been asking for my "stats" so here they are:
- 21 weeks
- 140lbs - 22 lbs. gained
- 36 inch waist - 9 inches added
These measurements will come in handy when I start shredding these inches and pounds off! Motivation, my friend, motivation
As things progress, my anxiety about giving birth has grown. Growing up I heard my birth story a lot, "a terrible experience" or "nightmare" were some of the most common terms. Now that I face my child's birth I cannot help but be scared! I was a large baby, my mother is small but I am definitely smaller. I won't go into gruesome details <EW!> but you can imagine that I'm deathly afraid being able to squeeze a baby thru that small area
I have not had the best experience with my doctor and her staff. I have had one problem after another and after a call from a very good friend today have decided to take a leap and look for a new doctor. I feel so strange in part because I have my next appointment Monday. I actually have questions this time around and don't want to "break up with her" while getting care. So I think I am going to go through my appointment, pretend everything is normal and call about a week later to explain my reasons (if she wants to know) for leaving. Let me ask you this - have you ever had a doctor PAT you on the head? As in, you are an adult expressing fear (my case being: childbirth) and your doctor pats you on the head in a patronizing way. As if there is another way to pat an ADULT'S head!! It was only once, but it was our first meeting and I should have followed my first instinct - RUN!
The search for a doctor begins...
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